(This was written way back in 2004). Please share your first blog post or something that was/ is very close to your heart and a write-up that you still remember….
Loneliness
(Karthik Narayan)
“A damn cold night, wont you take my by the hand, take me somewhere new, somewhere at all…”
Avril Lavigne didn’t just scream those words; it was agony that made her scream thus.
Left to cry there, left alone there, crying all alone in this world – does it sound strange? I don’t think so. Every one of us is losing our grip and starting to trip. Do you feel real to yourself? The answer is NO, if you are being honest.
Who is there to recognize our face in a crisis and help us out? Nobody at all.. Not unless you have been entrusted a very high social responsibility and your well being is going to be good for the peachier (read wealthier and bureaucratic) section of the society, that isn’t so much important comparing to your position. And you don’t care for that anyways. All that matters is YOU, and only you.. Hmmm… it’s not about being egoistic and selfish. That is the only way to survive in this world.. I am getting carried away. More of that for later, maybe some other time!
Perhaps by now, you must have found yourself in a similar situation at one stage or the other in your whatever kind of life you have led. Kid or adult, granny or sonny, no matter who you are, life is the same! It is only the stage that matters, and how you take it all.
Loneliness is a word of many meanings. To each his own version of the word.
To a poet, it means peace and quiet to work his way into the sonnets and to bard his way into his own world.
And if you go ask a couple of love birds, it is time to be alone, to enjoy and savor those free moments of privacy…
A man of peace and a city man will cry out loud for a moment of peace and quiet and to be all-alone. That means a lot to a common city man, who has had a tough week at work, those huge mounting bills and this comes as a huge sigh of relief to get time off. And to relax and some serious soul searching.
Introspection into your own life comes only when you are lonely. It is that little thing that is so harsh in our lives. Being without anyone to really care for. All those “hi” and “bye” people on the road, all of them know you too little and are much too busy to spend a moment talking to you and comforting you.
And don’t dare blame them, they were never at fault. Everyone’s got their own lives to live, and egos to build. We all need our own private spaces, you telling yourself about those intimate moments and sentiments, writing your own blogs and diaries and what not.
And finally you would have loved to spill the beans and share your joys with another to stay close to your heart and be genuinely happy for you. And then you remember those spiders, those spiteful people who manage to bite at your back and remove a chunk of flesh while they smile in front.
It is much better to feel better by not telling anyone. Not hearing those soothing words, “Oh yes dear! I am sorry for you, but don’t worry. It will all be better soon!” while they actually mean, “oh yeah, I am happy that you are suffering”.
Don’t think about it, you wont hear the good words, not from the hearts of the people you expect. Maybe, their lips shall bypass the heart, and thus the words may escape. But people of today’s worlds always feel that having friends and people all around you, being with people makes you happy. Happiness can also be derived out of loneliness.
Being single and alone doesn’t mean anything bad. It acts as a motivation to live life to the fullest. Keep away from the crowds and let your mind loose into the flowing breeze, get the breath of fresh air in your lungs, and letting go of all emotions that you have never been able to share with anyone thus far, for no splendid reason.
So next time, don’t feel sad about being alone, not having enough friends, not being able to go out with friends, hanging out at “happening Places” like them cool dudes and dudettes do. Not because it is your destiny or anything, please don’t feel that way. Remember, you are always special, special to one and all. But just because you don’t get recognized does not mean that you aren’t that special. If not to all, you are always special to three people in your life, the people who matter most – your mother, father and GOD!
And now I am going to let you in on a secret. Yes, a secret, don’t tell anyone!
Psst… come closer please! William Shakespeare, the famous playwright, himself felt so lonely and bugged with life, and he said these words!
When you laugh, you have the whole world to laugh with;
But when you cry, you are left all alone to cry.
See, it happens to anyone (and you thought you were the only one!). Now keep that smile going, and stop worrying. By the way, you better not speak of this to anyone! A secret is a secret, right? (Wink)
Apart from that – hats off to you!
